Quite stoked to be featured in #StrongHealthyWomen this month! This pretty much sums up why I do what I do now.
You can read the whole interview here.
A little from the interview below –
“To unlearn decades worth of unhealthy thoughts about yourself is tough….During the 9 months that I was on conditional bail before being sentenced, I was under the care of a forensic psychologist. I had my first light bulb moment with her. My thoughts about myself during anorexia and the moment before offending were one and the same – ‘If I don’t do this, I will not be of value.’
I worked hard to retrain my thoughts using cognitive behavioural therapy under her guidance and antidepressants. However as soon as the handcuffs went on and I was stripped of all my identity and locked in a cell, it was extremely difficult to maintain all the healthier thoughts I had of myself. All your freedom is taken, including choice of food.
About three months into prison time I had my second light-bulb moment as I sat on the grey floor of the cell, hating myself and wanting to die. I recognised that these thoughts were exactly the same pre anorexia, pre diagnosis of depression and pre offending. What would I have unlearned if I continued to be consumed by these? NOTHING.”
Written by Eleni Psillakis